Feeling not good enough....

 FRIENDS, this Art Journey, is the most difficult one yet although all my life I have always wanted to draw and paint. This Art World I have entered into makes me look deep into myself and ask myself why I still feel after all these years I'm Not Good Enough. I have already figured out the answer, and the answer is because all my life I have been systematically conditioned to believe that some things only Special or Talented individuals can do and that Art, is one of those things. I literally believed that (foolishness). When I think about it, I have been creating Art all along through my Knitting and crocheting, but never considered it.

It was not until I read somewhere, that whatever it is you want to know, you can be Taught, boy, was I glad to find that out, that statement gave me hope. I knew then that if I can learn it, I can do it.

I also learned that it takes lots of practice and patients it's like they say, "Roman was not built in a day."  I still have lots to do along my Journey, I just have to learn how to let go of my fears and have fun with this new venture. 

The other fear I have is painting an Ugly painting, but I am learning that I need the ugly paintings because they help me improve.  And anyway, what determines if a painting is ugly or not? Because of all the crazy Art phobias you can often feel Stuck and that nothing is working out, that is when you have to keep on keeping on and not give up.  Sometimes I can't decide what to even put on my Art paper or canvas.  At that point I get a magazine or advertisement and sketch an image from that, and it helps me get back in the mood.

I realize that they only person I have to please with my Art is (Me) I understand that everyone may not like or enjoy my Art and that is Okay.  I am not looking for anyone's approval or criticism of my art, these things I have to keep telling myself and which is all part of this lifelong conditioning. The more I blog about how I feel during this journey, the more all my inhibitions begin to fade away. So far, I am 

happy with the Art I am creating.  I enjoy sketching and drawing so that my work is looking more realistic. I am now taking drawing and painting classes at the local Community College, and I am very happy with that.

I have also done something that I didn't believe I would do and that is enter into a Senior Art Competition.   I don't expect to win but it was just the fact that I was not afraid to compete. Keep your fingers, toes and arms crossed friends, in hope that I do win.  I will let you know (for sure) if I do. The announcement of the winners in the competition will be in October at the Senior Expo held at the Timonium Fair Grounds, if you have time come on out, and enjoy the festivities.